third-gender-journal

I guess I'm pretty sure I'm nonbinary now, but I don't really know what that means, in specific for me.

So far I've done all the things I know I needed to do: change my name, declare myself apart from womanhood. I've done the easy things too, like cutting my hair and wearing a binder.

Just the big, potentially permanent choices left.

It's hard to gauge whether what I've done is enough, whether it'll be enough for the future. Normally I'd just throw care to the wind and figure it out by running headlong into it. But there's one big important thing about hormones.

Which is my partner. Almost seven years together and my best friend in every way. And unfortunately, very much attracted to women. And neither of us can say what will happen to that attraction in the future.

And while it's true it's never a good idea to suppress yourself for someone else, it's hard to think of something worth more to me than him.

So we're proceeding with caution, and cherishing what we have while we have it.